Background Info

We are both graduating college this year, and turning 22. He will be getting a bachelors in computer engineering, and myself, in finance with a minor in real estate. Ultimately, I hope we become closer, more confident, more ideal..

We met at a summer camp up in NY back in 2002. We were 15. We barely saw each other and did not talk until a week after it was over and there was a lunch. I had the idea to pass a sheet along for everyone in my group (of girls) to put contact info. But of course, it easily made it's way to the boy's side. Anyway, this is how we really got to talking. As the fall semester progressed, we got to know each other pretty well and became pretty close. Only thing, he was always telling me how amazing I was. My response: I barely know what you look like and said the same had to be for him as well.

With time, constant communication, and some irrational desire, I grew to like the kid, a lot. Of course, I denied such possibility. I strongly believed any relationship was bad news, a sure way to disappointment, and not something to pursue while in school. I really had no faith in the dating-bf/gf system at all. I didn't know how I was going to find my future husband, but believed I shouldn't worry about it at that point. No doubt, all these opinions attracted this kid even more..

He respected it. He respected me. He liked me. We were close, though. He had his own life in NY, and my own in FL. I went to private school, had few friends, and was ridiculously sheltered on the whole. He had a life, friends, dated, had girls, girlfriends, all the good fun. And I being the sheltered one, had my opinions and he knew them.

One day, I thought he had done something, the thing any guy would love to do, and I blew a fuse. He was shocked. But on top of that, he feared if he really were to continue the way he was and do something like that day, he'd lose me. Now, I know how I reacted would not make sense if we were just friends.. I had definitely fallen for him. My feelings against bf/gf relationships were a lot stronger for such a thought to actually occur to me though, and so it didn't - not for a few months anyway.

The date we finally really committed to each other, April 6th, 2003.

Superficial?

too frustrated/ashamed to begin..